I Paint My World The Way I Want It

Thursday, June 25, 2009

sad..
yup..
just really sad..
ah..
but what to do..
just get on with the next choice..
gotta learn from my mistakes..
no other choice now..
just freaking f**k it..
whatever..

and now..
another thing..
i'm still stuck..
k?
i'm just freaking stuck..
left or right?
nowhere man..
nowhere..
maybe one day i'll throw all those heavy weights away and just stand upright and walk straight again..
one day..
i know i will..
and i'll look back and be really sad abt it..
but tell myself that its all for the best..
and let everything stay in memory..
maybe thats what i'll do..
but i have no courage..
and no will..
haiz,..

Paint Splashed<3
11:08 PM

Friday, June 12, 2009

lalalalalalalalallala..
to hell with sanity..
i'm on a little boat..
rocked to and fro by the diff wind directions..
i know my ultimate goal and direction..
but still its kinda hard to move since i'm pushed around and affected by the winds..
whoa..
i know what i really really want..
but how is that even possible at all??????
goodness..
i'm outta my mind..
i've nv experienced this before..
i need to push the pulling force away..
haiz..
i'm falling fast down the deep hole in the ground..
falling deep and hard, head over heels for sth thats outta my reach..
why..........

thats all for now..

tata..

Paint Splashed<3
8:49 AM

Thursday, June 4, 2009

interview was ytd..
thought it went okay..
but still yet to know the results..
kinda scared..
haha..

but ytd was damn fun too..:)
seriously..
the hopping machine was crazy..
haha!!
thank you..:)
really had a great time..:)

thats all for now..

tata..
gotta sort out so many stuffs in myself..
argh..

Paint Splashed<3
9:02 AM