Friday, October 31, 2008
Y
i loveeeeeeeeee jalan asas area..:)
so nice..:)
the small shops and restaurants and all..:)
its even nicer at night..:)
ooooooooooooooooooooo...........
3 more days to As!!!!!!!!!!!!
mug mug MUG MUG MUG!!!!!!!!!!
bio is my temporary love for now..
haha..
integration..
sighs..
thats all for now..
MUGGING!!!!!!!!!
Paint Splashed<3
12:22 PM
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Y
my parents told me sth ytd..
think i believe better la..
but its damn sad..
sucky..
haiz..
accept it then..
what to do..
and dun make the same mistakes lo..
ah..
i'm over it..
and luckily i didnt do what i had wanted to..
all i can do..
is wait..
just another like 5 or 6yrs more??
if it'll only be safe at that time, den so be it..
fact accepted..
just be wary of those that come before the 5 or 6yrs lo..
:(
whatever..
:)
study hard for now..:)
and for the future too..
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
12:04 PM
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Y
tears..
again..
blame it on yourself angela..
serve you right..
and archives suck too..
Paint Splashed<3
11:22 AM
Y
should i?
or should i not?
hmm..
cant make up my mind..
anyway..
this just came into my mind..
so long ago, yet still so clear..
Sen No Yoru Wo Koete lyrics
Aisaretai demo aisou to shinai
Sono kurikaeshi no naka wo samayotte
Boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte kizutsuitatte
Suki na hito ni wa suki tte tsutaerunda
Anata ga boku wo aishiteru ka aishitenai ka
Nante koto wa mou docchi demo ii n da
Donna ni negai nozomou ga
Kono sekai ni wa kaerareru mono ga takusan aru darou
Sou soshite boku ga anata wo aishiteru to iu jijitsu dake wa
Dare ni mo kaerareru shinjitsu dakara
Sen no yoru wo koete anata ni tsutaetai
Tsutaenaka naranai koto ga aru
Aisaretai demo aisou to shinai
Sono kurikaeshi no naka wo samayotte
Boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte kizutsuitatte
Suki na hito ni wa suki tte tsutaeru n da
Kimochi wo kotoba ni suru no wa kowai yo demo
Suki na hito ni wa suki tte tsutaeru n da
Kono hiroi sekai de meguri au yorokobi wo kotoba jya ii arawasenai ne
Dakara bokutachi wa hohoemi
Iro azayaka ni sugiru aki wo doremi de utatte
Fuyu wo se ni haru no komorebi wo machi
Atarashiku umare kawaru dareka wo mamoreru youni to
Kita michi to yukisaki furikaereba itsudemo okubyou na me wo shite ita boku
Mukiaitai demo sunao ni narenai
Massugu ni aite wo aisenai hibi wo
Kurikaeshite wa hitori bocchi wo iyagatte
Ano hi no boku wa mukizu no mama de hito wo aisou to shite ita
Sen no yoru wo koete ima anata ni ai ni yukou
Tsutaenaka naranai koto ga aru
Aisaretai demo aisou to shinai
Sono kurikaeshi no naka wo samayotte
Boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte kizutsuitatte
Suki na hito ni wa suki tte tsutaeru n da
Sono omoi ga kanawanakutatte suki na hito ni suki tte tsutaeru
Sore wa kono sekai de ichiban suteki na koto sa
i dunno why but i just really miss this song..
its really really nice..:)
thats all for now..
tata..
i dun wanna feel stupid again..
Paint Splashed<3
9:23 AM
Monday, October 27, 2008
Y
i'm happy with the way life is now..:)
and how i'm leading it..:)
as well as the ppl in it now too..:)
yes yes yes..
i'm referring to you 3 HUGE pantats..
haha..:)
and family..
i just hope there's a way to help them get thru this yr and next yr..
money money money!!!!
its not everything.
yet you cant live without it..
and we're without it now..:(((((
actually zoo and starbucks would be really nice..
as in its not a combi la..
i mean either one..
haha..
my mum's been telling me lotsa relationship stuffs these few days..
old guys, young guys and other nonsense..
wonder whats wrong with her..
hmm..
exactly 1 wk to As..
aaargh!!!!!!!!!
gtg study!!!
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
10:20 AM
Y
firstly..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DONNA!!!
start flapping, flapping flapping flapping flapping......................
haha..
study hard now..
we'll go celebrate your bday after the As..:)
anyway..
been feeling really at peace these few days..
unlike how i would've felt in the past..
its a gd change..
isn't it?
:)
been talking to donna ALOT these few days..
haha..
draining her batt..
but its nice talking to her..:)
and shal too..
later she gets jealous..
haha..:P
i realise my life takes a change every 10yrs..
the first big change was coming to spore..
now, 10yrs later, its sth else..
but i hope things wont go too bad la..
things been happening at home..
dunno how i can help..
can only get a job after As..
still so LONGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!
i need money ppl..
5K?
anyone wanna lend me????
i'll pay back before cny..
haiz..
this is all so terrible..
learnt sth thru it though..
never ever trust ppl easily..
and nv be too nice..
well anyway..
i realised i know what i wanna do alr..
and i told my sis..
at first she still thought it was possible..
then when i told her the place i wanna work at..
she thought i was crazy..
haha..
you'll nv be able to guess where i wanna work at..
:P
but its a bit hard la..
and looking at the way things are now..
i dun think my mum'll let me study it too..
sobs..:(
you feel like a stranger to me now..
everything just seems so faraway..
i just cant seem to be as bothered now..
maybe like what donna says, i'm stronger and more matured now?
could be..
for now..
when i plan my life, i leave no room for love..
love's outta my mind and its gonna be ages before its coming back..
i feel like i have less things to worry abt now..
like what you do and stuff..
i'm just..
at peace..
i'm gonna take life as it comes..
take ppl as they pass..
just be happy..:)
and ya..
ppl..
there's a chance that i could be leaving spore too..
not now la..
maybe after my sisters grad from uni..
i'm actually kinda tired of this place too..
i wanna go back to thailand..:(
and i love KEANE!!!!
spiralling is so nice!!!!!!!!!!
love his voice and guitar!!!
haha..
thats all for now..
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
9:24 AM
Friday, October 24, 2008
Y
my mum's happy with me..:)
talked super lot of nonsense with her at home..
and she can really talk nonsense too..
i think she beat me..
haha!!
listened to her talk just now during dinner..
and i realised that she actually understands..
as in she can be all nasty but she really does understand actually..
but now's e time to study..
not the time for other stuffs yet..
haha..
and i'm pretty sure she's gonna keep her word..:)
so yup..
can't wait!!!!!:):)
haha..
one more topic to end of chem syllabus revision!!!!!!!
finally..
no more time left!!!!
aaargh!!!!!!!!!!!
and ya..
black coffee is my new love now..:)
love the bitterness..
and less sugar too..
keeps me awake!!:))
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
8:42 PM
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Y
if i were a boy lyrics..
its like..
wow..
nice..:)
like it alot..
but i dun really like the mv..
and anyway..
i had the urge to reply to what you said..
but i wont..
cos i said i'll stop..
not gonna break what i say..
so ya..
you can say whatever you like..
i dun care..
I MISS YOU 3 PANTATS!!!!!!!!!!!!:(((((((((((
thats all..
tata..
As is coming..
which means after As is coming soon too!!!!!!!!!!!!!:)
Paint Splashed<3
8:39 PM
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Y
oh god..
i just cant stop laughing..
haha..
okay..
this is so damn hilarious..
i'm AMAZED at how a person can just ASSUME i'm referring to her when i dun even say it..
but well..
gotta get serious..
now..
i have always been ambiguous in my writing so i shall be CLEAR now..
TO EUGENIA CHEOK:
let me clear this up and get this straight into your head once and for all..
1) burn you off the pic????? since when did i EVER write things in italics to you??? since when
have you ever become so impt that italics are for you???
2) SINCE NEVER
3) i dun judge a person by their blog. i judge them by the way they talk and express themselves..
4) STOP thinking that you're so impt and everything i write is abt you.
5) COS YOU'RE NOT.
6) FYI, if i hated you so much, i wont have asked bryan to stop lying to you and told you the truth that he felt nothing for you.. but i guess you wont appreciate it so nvm..
7) whether i'm a princess or not, i think i'll decide for myself.
8) if you think that what you said will affect or has affected me, then you're so wrong.. i get amused and entertained actually..:)
9) cos you're not even a full-stop or comma in my life. maybe bryan is, but definitely not you.
10) since you say you're not childish, i respect what you say, so lets just stop this stupid game of bitching one another. you and me have nothing to do with each other from now on.
11) the world does not revolve around you.
12) thank you for the entertainment. you made my day..:)
now..
i shall take my leave back into my "ROYAL" world..
is it what its called?:)
tata..
thanks for the hug today..:)
and yes..
i'm gonna listen to you for once..
and i declared peace with her already..
what happens next is not up to me alr..
Paint Splashed<3
9:18 PM
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Y
my dad's been crazy these few days..
keep wanting to do all the hsework and chores..
wash the dishes, peel the veg, wanna wash my bro's clothes and even COOK!!!
he made ytd's dinner!!
quite nice though..:)
ages since he last cooked..
haha..:)
suddenly thought of what i did on fri..
in the lib..
haha..
took fries in!!!
we hid it under jon's newspaper..
damn funny..
so sneaky..
haha..
and i did the throw-fries-behind-and-hit-their-face act..
as in not really throw la..
just act only..
and rashal laughed like crazy..
she just couldn't stop..
laugh till she get headache..
LOL..
i didint know it was so funny..
haha..
anyway..
doing organic chem now..
my mem still not bad eh..
haha..
wow..
i dunno whether you're refering to me..
but if you really are..
haha..
here's what i can say and will say: you can call me whatever you like and I DUN CARE
:)
looking forward to after As..
gonna look for a job..
hope life changes then..
i have this feeling that it will change..:)
in a positive way..:)
thats what keeping me going and studying now..
just 1mth more...................:)
listening to my blog song now..
haha..
love story..
this bull shit song..
its stupid but nice..
haha..
i'm done with and have had enough of lies and empty promises though..:)
and this is what i'm gonna say..
NOTHING CAN EVER AFFECT ME..
THIS INCLUDES YOU, YOU AND YOU..
this 3 yous..
refers to 3 diff ppl..
haha..
okay..
guess thats all for now..
mugging..
dun wanna read then dun read lo..
no one's forcing you..:)
tata..
burn, burn, burn, baby, burn
you're just another picture to burn..:)
Paint Splashed<3
11:55 AM
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Y
went out for breakfast with my parents just now..
then my mum went to buy newspaper from my pri sch friend's stall..
everytime i nv talk to her cos i think she wont rmb me la..
then today ny mum pointed to me and ask if she rmb angela..
den she paused for half a second and say yes!!!
after almost 10yrs!!
cos i transferred off after pri 4..
lol..
i nv thought she'd still rmb me even when its just 2yrs tgt..
haha..
she still told my mum she used to sit beside me and copy my spelling during tests..
so funny..
damn cute la..
dunno why i always have this thinking that nobody will rmb me..
thats why i was surprised..
haha..:)
ytd was official last day of sch..
damn crazy..
we wanted to leave sch early but the stupid guard wont let us..
so huge grps of ppl went to office to take early leave forms..
in the end we waited till the guard left her post and the grp of us ran out..
cos she was chasing this grp of guys that left sch..
haha..
and 198 came and we ran all the way from the traffic light to the bus stop..
aiyo..
haha..
satisfied my red ruby cravings ytd with rashal, donna and jon..:)
damn nice..
haha..
so happy..:)
watched and listened to love story just now..
so sweet..
but its bullshit though..
just a fairytale..
there's only lies and empty promises in reality..
less than 2wks to As..
mugging..
for me, myself, and I..
to get what i want..:)
woke up..
and i'm never gonna dream again..:)
cos i saved myself..
from you..
:)
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
11:38 AM
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Y
read a blog just now..
all i can say is just..
whatever..
thats all i can say..
totally..
taylor swift's love song is nice..:)
thats all..
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
9:26 PM
Monday, October 13, 2008
Y
guess what..
my dad is washing the dishes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AMAZING!!!!
haha..
it has nv happened before..
and my dad VOLUNTEERED to wash..
funny..
they're getting more and more loving each day..
tsk tsk tsk..
PDA in front of kids..
TSK!!
haha..
and donna rashal and jon bully me today!!!!!
they just left the table after eating..
everyone refused to return the plates..
we ran away at the count of 3 but ppl were looking la..
usually i'll just leave too..
but being the nice me, i returned!!!!!!
horrible ppl..
you all owe me one each!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dun care!!!
haha..
study break next week..
and someone's coming to study with me..:)
haha..:)
he can better use his time too..
right?:P
and hmm..
cant stop looking at some stuffs..
as much as i dun like it..
bad bad bad..
dunno how to say also..
sigh..
thats all for now..
tata..
gtg study le..
my mum's nagging nagging nagging..
Paint Splashed<3
7:57 PM
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Y
today
at home..
drinking coffee..
listening to songs..
singing..
moving to the beat..
studying..
online..
sunny day..
peace..
relaxed..
perfect day..
happiness..:)
this is how i like it..:)
been drinking alot of coffee and eating lotsa chilli padi..
love them..
haha..
but gotta study quick..
no time baby..
2 plus weeks more to go..
and..
sharing problems lessens the amount you have to carry on your own..
i'm here..
i'll do my best to realise my mum's dreams..:)
holland and windmills and tulips..
we're coming to get you!!!:)
ren zhi is such a sad song..:(
but i like supergirl..:)
gtg now..
grp VII elements are waiting for me..
things will get better in 2wks time i guess..
tata..
i lurve my blog song..:)
Paint Splashed<3
10:59 AM
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Y
bought fisherman's friend sweet for my dad..
gave him just now..
though it wasn't exactly the flavour he wanted..
he was so happy..:)
cos i care for him ba..:)
and i still rmb after he told me so long ago..
and he gave me a half hug..:)
haha..
esplanade..:)
was happy today..:)
so long since i last went there..
pretty pretty..
talked and well..
i felt the same way all over again..:)
watched america's got talent just now..
some very touching stories..
almost cried..
hmm..
and miracles DO happen..:)
thats what i can say after watching it..:)
thanks for having faith and hope..
no matter how little it is..:)
tata..
22 days to As!!!!!!
Paint Splashed<3
10:23 PM
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Y
hmm..
whatever la huh..
oops or no oops..
its my choice of writing and my way of expression..
if you're not happy den dun read my blog..
you know who you are..
i never asked you to read in the first place..
i have never commented on what you say in your blog okay..
just whatever..
dun wanna waste my time on such ppl..
meeting chi and xy soon..
maybe thurs..
cant wait to see them..:)
things are supposedly solved now..
i hope it goes well..
as in just stay the way it is now..
i hope there'll be no more such probs in the future..
anyway..
to you..
i just wanna say thank you..
like again..
haha..
though we pissed each other off this morning..
faith is impt..
have faith..
and trust..
and love..
there can be miracles when you believe..:)
tata..
sometimes caring for others can hurt yourself..
Paint Splashed<3
7:31 PM
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Y
ytd was a happy day..:)
and yes..
thanks for assuring and reassuring me..:)
total faith yea?:)
and i guess my presence made someone unhappy..
oops..:P
but well..
sometimes ppl got to face the truth yea?
and thank you too..:)
i knew what i did was the right thing..
and so i made the right decisions..
once again..:)
deep down i still feel that what you're doing is wrong..
i know the consequences of it..
but well..
if you dun wanna listen to me, there's nothing i can do..
just make sure you get it done ba..
just fulfill your promises..
dun give me the chance to say "see, i told you so.. you shd've listened to me.."
but ya..
i'll give you some time..:)
thats all for now..
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
10:44 AM
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Y
hmm..
i'm glad you didnt delay telling her..
at least its better for everyone..
and you wont have to carry on lying to her any longer..
thanks..
for listening to me..
for once..
and thanks for the msges you sent today..:)
:)
anyway..
i think i'm going to be sick soon..:(
coughing..
and flu the whole of ytd..
i think a sore throat is coming..
i can feel it..
hope i wont get sick..
:(
28 more days to As..
counting down..
mugging..
i need more time!!
i really need to study hard..
and i saw him today..
like finally..
after so long..
haha..:)
and again..
i dunno why..
but ya..
thank you..
and to eugenia, if you ever come to my blog..
i just wanna say i'm sorry..
and i'm relieved that you're not lied to or kept in the dark any longer..
i just hope that you're okay..:)
relationship stuffs just put one side first..
its not impt at 14yrs old..
and ya..
if you wanna hate me, just carry on..
i just hope you'll understand..
that some things cant be forced..
okay..
gtg study chem now..
ionic eqm, rxn kinetics and electrochem..
here i come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tata..
still coughing..
loves..
Paint Splashed<3
7:29 PM
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Y
second post pf the day..
what happened ytd kept playing in my mind..
the things you said, the things you did, the things we did..
and to think that before that we still promised there'd be zero intimacy..
LOL..
i think many ppl will disapprove of what i did ytd..
but there's mixed feelings..
i dunno too..
but the thing is that we were both forced under circumstances..
maybe thats why the feelings linger..
but well..
i hope there's someone that can hear the things i say..
and listen to the things i didnt say..
cos usually, the things i didnt say are what i'm really trying to say..
the only person that i tell everything to is you..
ytd i realised that we're both so diff..
and you said thats why we got tgt and you loved me..
haha..
i hope you'll listen to me for once..
and settle the thing..
i wont interfere..
i promise..
i'll let you do it on your own..
since you agree that she's still young, den stop lying to her le la..
k?
for now..
we'll both walk forward..
and let fate do its job..
whether or not what you say will happen, is still unknown..
i know you want it, but for now it cant happen just yet..
for now..
i'm in love with T-SHIRT by SHONTELLE..
such a nice song..
and MISS INDEPENDENT by neyo..
and i dreamt that i pierced my tongue last night!!!
and i was so proud of it in my dream!!
aiyo..
maybe its a sign??
crazy..
haha..
new blog song..
Tshirt by shontelle..
lovely lovely..:)
you said somewhere in your heart i'll always have a place there..
and i believe you..:)
Paint Splashed<3
11:29 AM
Y
ytd was like reliving the past..
it felt comfortable, once again..
it was a bit awkward at first, i admit..
i noticed your long stares but i didnt dare look back..
when you advanced, i was rooted..
i know how you felt..
and how i felt..
and that really got me confused..
my senses and my nerves were all clumped up at my hand, where you touch..
i was at a loss of what to do..
your tears..
they ignited sth in me..
i was confused..
i know you are too..
your touches sent chills and electric shocks down me..
i'm not exaggerating..
its true..
when our lips touched, tears rolled down..
everything that happened after that ytd seemed like as if we had nv separated before..
it just felt all so natural..
i know what you told me were the truth..
i can feel it..
so i really wish that you can stop lying to her..
you like her..
but thats a lie..
i know why you did that..
but what you're doing is wrong and you know it too..
i dun wish that you toy with her feelings..
yes, i know she's the willing party..
but she's still young and there's many things that you have to be truthful to her abt..
i dun want you to end up hurting her..
i know you're desperate to get me outta your head like what you said..
but this is wrong..
so stop. stop lying to her before things get worse..
this is not the way..
yes..
no promises, no regrets..
what you said might happen one day, for all you know..
i dunno too..
and if the second part of what you said happen, it'll be so funny..
an old man and an old lady..
lol..
and yup..
ytd was a really happy day for both of us..
it felt like a dream..
but time passes and what has happened has happened..
you and i both know how we both feel towards each other..
but i just wanna let you know that its never right to lie..
i hope you'll tell her the truth asap..
cos short term pain is always better than a long term one..
you know it..
and its nv right to use the consequences of future awkward meetups during cosplay as an excuse to not tell her..
this is cheating her feelings..
and you called me what you used to call me again..
after so long..
maybe you did it at first subconsciously..
but i know the next few times you called me again, you were aware of it..
haha..
and ya..
dun worry..
i know how you actually feel now..
:)
ya..
i havent changed..
in every single way..
and you still rmbed..
haha..
and you too..
still the same..:)
but yes..
life goes on..
and thanks for staying as someone i can always talk to..:)
thank you..
Paint Splashed<3
10:07 AM
