Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Y
woke up super early today..
my parents went out and forgot to take his phone..
called me to bring it down for him and now i cant slp..
tired..
today's the last day of 2008..
tmr's a new day and new yr..
and i hope everything will be better in the coming new yr..
anyway..
you dun have to give me any explanation.
all i ever wondered is whether you've asked yourself the same qns you asked me.
all you ever showed me in your self explanation is that you're still the same confused person.
when will you be sure of what you want or dun want?
i dunno.
you're still the way you were 2mths ago.
ytd me and yuehang were playing so much..
he thought i was going crazy..
first time seeing me jumping around and singing and laughing so much..
and he kept annoying me..
haha..
had so much fun ytd..:)
but well..
i'm quitting my job soon..
may still work at the same place or maybe not..
see how first..
wait till they can find a replacement then i'll leave..
maybe end of this wk is my last wk..
havent told my parents yet..
only my sis..
but i'm sure they'll be fine with it..
its not the work that i dun like..
its the pay..
cos they're planning a cut starting 1st jan..
so i'm not staying on..
decided the moment shela told me..
"angela.. er.. are you okay with the pay?"
"no!"
yup..
thats how i said it..
with the exclamation mark in my tone..
haha..
i think my face showed my unhappiness la..
but some are okay with the pay though..
whatever..
i'm not..
thats all for now..
gonna go try grab some slp before i have to leave for work..
gonna enjoy my last few days there..
yuehang was damn sad by my decision..
asked me to stay on and pei him..
but nothing can change my mind once i'm set on it..
gonna miss all the fun with him though..
sad..
HAPPY 2009 PPL!!:)
tata..
finally found that jap band i was talking abt..
love psychedelico!!
freedom is so nice..:)
rehab-rihanna..:)
loved..:)
Paint Splashed<3
7:47 AM
Monday, December 29, 2008
Y
waited.
stared.
emo-ed.
laughed.
teared.
smiled.
i dun understand why you asked.
why.
for what.
why the hell.
see no diff.
feel no diff.
and there will be no diff.
but from now on, there will be a diff.
for me.
definitely.
starting now.
HA.
mayching and her sis and mum came ytd..
thanks for the curry puff..:)
and for the nonsense..
realised i missed my friends alot..
and sch too..
had quite alot of fun with yuehang and kaze ytd..:)
the gun and nonsense talking..
haha..
i think kaze has influenced me into liking this particular jap band alot..
i think its damn nice..
heh..
off day today..:)
its gd to spend time with family..:)
its all getting better..:)
thats all for now..
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
2:13 PM
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Y
ytd's crowd was totally crazy..
no room to even move abt..
why do ppl like to buy last min presents??
was so tired and busy ytd..
didnt feel like doing anything..
damn tired..
came back and watch tv den just sleeeeeeeeeep..
goodness..
the rain outside now is making me sneeze like crazy..
non stop..
annoyed..
tmr's christmas..:)
hmm..
last yr christmas what was i doing?
oh...
spent last yr's with bryan..
made breakfast and a handmade card too..
ah..
the previous one..
hmm..
oh i bought a loco roco game as a present for him..
along with earphones and other stuffs..
it seemed so long ago..
2yrs ago..
ha..
nvm..
prob wont be busy tmr ba..
but i'll be working..:(((((
but serene said not likely to have many customers..:)
yay..:)
all i want for christmas is...
happiness..
from the bottom of my heart..
i'm so sick and tired of having to pretend everyday..
so ya..
santa..
give me my present pls..:)
thats all for now..
gtg prepare for work..
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!:)
tata..
its funny how things are..
its funny how things were..
its funny to wait and see how things will be..
its funny to be thinking and waiting and be on the edge again..
ha..
Paint Splashed<3
9:30 AM
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Y
busy is gd..
work is actually therapeutic..
work is escape..
from everything that will come haunt my mind when i'm left alone without anything to do..
ytd was kinda busy but we still found our way of slacking..
haha..
met yaqing ytd..:)
and lotsa ppl a few days ago..
me and yuehang were talking non stop and slacking even when there's ppl..
lol..
and he got scolded be sheila..:P
den we sneaked out to buy bubble tea..:)
damn funny..
serene was looking for us everywhere..
and he made me feel so damn short..
but its gd too la..
i dun have alot of very tall friends..:P
ah..
i dunno..
it feels a teeny weeny tiny bit weird..
and last night's msg made me a bit scared..
that things might go in a wrong direction..
that history might possibly repeat itself..
oh god..
i hope i'm just thinking too much..
but he made me feel kinda.............
i dunno how to describe it..
its not sth bad la..
haha..
aiya..
its not possible de la..
and i wont want it too..
crazy..
but i seriously hope things will stay the way it is la..
better..?
nvm..
there's still the sony person..
everyday just look to the left can alr..
:P
whatever la..
i'm going mad..
haha..
anyway..
gtg bathe now..
serene's actually not as bad as they say la..
we can click well actually..
hmm..
thats all for now..
i miss the sun cos now the night accompanies me everyday..
makes me feel lonely and emo..
night + walk home alone= lonely..
haha..
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
8:39 AM
Friday, December 19, 2008
Y
i went to youtube..
saw a music video..
and it made me cry..
the lyrics were just totally.....
ah..
its a jap song anyway..
another reason that made me feel this way is prob cos someone watched it too?
and it made me confused how the person thinks..
cos seriously i dun even know now..
mata aimashou..
Paint Splashed<3
9:55 AM
Y
i didnt realise we were actually so diff..
into so diff stuffs..
seriously..
only realised this lately..
haha..
how funny..
and i have no interest in those kinda stuffs too..
totally..
i'd much rather be doing sth else..
hmm..
anyway..
shal and jon came again ytd..
getting really sick of them soon..
haha..
ytd work was fun..:)
and i sold the most impossible thing too!!:)))
the art of talking and persuasion..
haha..
we played the songs on my phone in the shop ytd..
we were getting sick of that stupid cd..
so me and yue hang were trying out..
damn excited..
got wires and stuffs..
haha..
but seriously, my songs are much better..:P
made me so much happier and in the mood for work..:)
and serene treated us to pizza hut ytd..
sai was damn funny..
eating like a monster..
haha..
and i seriously hope everything goes well for my sis..
i dun want that to happen to her..
feels heartache when i see her cry till her eyes all swollen..
makes me wanna cry too..
i prayed that she'd pass..
if not i really dunno what's gonna happen next..
pls, let everything be okay for her..
dun let history repeat itself on her cos she's seriously much better than me..
she dun deserve it..
and ya..
well..
i have officially stopped chasing pavements..
and it feels gd, too..
more peace of mind..
:)
thats all for now..
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
9:30 AM
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Y
ytd was gd and horrible..
work was gd..
yun hang and sai kp playing with me..:)
and jessica too..:)
but met a freaky uncle..
abbie and his friend came too..
as well as rashal and jon..
and saw weng kin and she-man also..
haha..:)
the uncle..
damn freaky..
told abbie not to bully me and claim to be my uncle..
told me to call him if anyone bully me..
he came to find me 4 f-ing times ytd..
ask me if i live nearby and how i go home..
even ask for my name..
bloody hell..
if he comes again today, i'll tell him to go away..
goodness..
one freak in the morning and another in the day..
wth..
and that stupid ass from ytd is gonna come either today or tmr..
god..
why am i so suay.........
some ppl just dun realise how f-ing annoying and irritating they are..
just piss me off one more time, and they're so gonna get it..
ROAR!!!!!!!!!!!!
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
10:10 AM
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Y
omg..
i cant believe i'm actually talking to this person..
i dunno him..
and he feels a bit scary..
what with "i'll come see you tmr before i fly off to usa."
cos i told him i'm working..
ask me nonsense and whether i drive and can teach me driving..
oh god..
talked abt cars and he talked abt my hair and that he finds it nice..
dots..
told him i cut my hair..
super wrong move!!!!!!
cos now he's telling me i nv put up my new photo on the net and he can make me look like model..
goodness..
and now he told me he'll be at jp on thurs or fri..
and he wanna go jog with me..
as if i do jogging..
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarghhhhhhhhhhhhh..
OMG!!!!
gonna block him now..
scary guy..
gtg prepare for work now..
hopefully that scary guy wont appear..
how stupid can i be man..........................
moral of the story: dun put your msn on facebk..
tsk..
oh man..
i sign out just as he asked for my no..
HAHAHAHAHA..
luckily i didnt reply..
i'm fast enough..
totally....................
thats all for now..
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
8:57 AM
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Y
ah..
everytime sth related happens, my mood will totally change in a snap and i wont be able to concentrate..
forgot what i was supposed to say at that time..
that dumbass cd..
why in the world must they play those f-ing songs???
luckily i recovered from it fast enough..
but it kinda distracted me alot..
stupid..
and it had to replay around 30 times???
totally..
anyway..
i like the live your life song alot..
rihanna's..
think its nice..
heh..
if only there were 3 off-days a wk..
haha..
i think i'm used to talking very loudly..
and i realised i love to interact and talk..
alot..
and help others too..:)
kinda like my job..
apart from the fact that there are some very annoying customers..
super picky and choosy..
one tiny 1mm mark also cannot..
in the end had to change 6 times for those asses..
argh..
there were some very cute and funny customers though..
there was this guy..
damn funny..
and everyday is like a weekday to me..
even weekends..
i think i have to work on christmas too..:((((((((((
thats all for now..
tata..
getting better at doing this..
and yes..
being busy is gd..
i love to be busy..
even if it means i have reduced breaktime..
my mind is filled with demands from customers..:)
all i want is to see the ppl i wanna see..
hopefully this coming weekend..
Paint Splashed<3
3:09 PM
Monday, December 15, 2008
Y
finally using com after so many days..
been very busy these days with weekend and christmas coming..
so many ppl..
and had lotsa fun with yun hang and sai..
they keep disturbing me..
sticking scotchtape on my arm and other nonsense..
lol..
talked alot..
and many ppl came to see me too..:)
on fri saw many familiar ppl..
peili came with her mum..
rashal brought her whole gang there..
rashal, abbie, javier, mai, aishah and yew jin..
den we played with the electric shock chewing gum..
haha..
bryan came too..
with wei yuan..
i didnt expect him to come though..
was kinda surprised..
but i think i managed well..:)
saw segaff with his family on sat..
and i sold quite alot of stuffs..
haha..
did the bread and the stupid outfit on sat..
on sun peili came again..
brought cheryl, cy and carmen there also..
then went mac to eat but was a bit rushing though cos of my breaktime..
then ernest came too..
in the morning..
i was very surprised to see him..
i told him to buy sth and he told me to choose what i want and he'll buy for me..
lol..
showed him alot of stupid stuffs..
damn funny..
in the end he bought a 2x2 rubics cube..
he said its harder than the 5x5??
heh..
long long time since i last saw him..
haha..
serene's getting nicer..
not that annoying and bossy..
haha..
treated us to bubble tea too!!
my mango red tea..:)
was much happier ytd..:)
thanks to someone..
was kinda happy to see him..
haha..
made my day..:)
hope he'll come again this weekend..:)
thats all for now..
gtg get ready for work..
its good to be busy..
wont think abt other stuffs..
ha..
tata..
i think i'm managing alot better than i thought i will..:)
its not hard to smile..
but it really is torturing to smile when all you wanna do is just break down and cry..
was a bit scared when i received that sms..
dunno if i can act normal..
but all was well, i guess..
one day i'll be fine..
soon..
one day my mind will be free..
soon..
i will break free..
Paint Splashed<3
8:24 AM
Friday, December 12, 2008
Y
came back late again ytd..
ytd was fun!!:)
yuhang kp asking me to go for break and ask whether its my break time alr..
haha..
and sai kp disturbing me!!!!
trick me into pulling the electric shock chewing gum so many times..
bluff me say that if i press harder and pull den wont kena shock..
and i stupidly believed..
my scream made him laugh like crazy..
haha..
and he's such a vain pot..
act like superman and elvis presley and ask me if he's handsome..
totally...........
but he help me quite alot too..:)
gd..:)
yuhang kp getting disturbed by the two kids and he kp complaining to me..
lol..
i think i induce smiles on ppl's faces..:)
makes me kinda happy too..
but ah..
smiling has now become my full-time job..
dun ask me to smile anymore..
12hrs of smiling everyday is more than enough..
its equal to my whole lifetime of smiling i think..
i'm getting better at this everyday..:)
i'll master it one day soon..:)
just keep me busy and i'll be absolutely fine..
just that its very tiring..
thats all for now..
gonna go bathe and work alr..
no off-day this wk..:(
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
9:02 AM
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Y
gonna go bathe soon..
came back at almost midnight ytd..
ended work at 11 plus plus..
quite tired..
but it was quite fun talking to so many ppl..
there were times when a HUGE big crowd just gather in front of me to listen to what i have to say..
haha..
and it kinda boosted my confidence i guess..:)
kaze is having off day today..
he feels kinda like hanqing to me for some reason..
lol..
can humour without expression..
haha..
talked a bit to sai and he's quite nice..
but i looked funny in that outfit also..
rashal was laughing her head off when she saw me ytd..
haha..
anyway..
i smiled ALOT ytd..
the smiles i had just ytd was way more than i've ever smiled for the past one month..
i cant tell whether my smiles were real or fake..
i have no freaking idea..
smiled for like 10hrs straight..
chore..
ppl were funny..
and its good to be busy..
no time to think abt stuffs..
:)
gonna get my dearest frapp later!!!!!!
cant take it anymore!!
coffee cravings..
haha..
thats all for now..
running late..
gonna get totally sick of jp..
:)
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
9:37 AM
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Y
this song just..
struck me..
ain't no reason..
brett dennen..
Paint Splashed<3
9:49 AM
Y
going to work soon..
my mum's so worried abt me..
cos i'm very careless and stuff..
heh..
kp reminding me to eat during breaks and bring my sweater and stuffs..
haha..:)
so sweet..:)
she hugged me just now too before she went to office..
and told me to 'take gd care of yourself ar'..
my dad too..
and she bought something for me..
totally unexpected..
i was really very touched..
made me cry..
haha..:)
love them just oh so much!!:)
i'm a bit scared..
but well..
gd thing is i'll get to meet chi one of these days soon..:)
and hopefully yuqin and another friend..
didnt see them for at least a million yrs alr..
haha..
been out at night alot these few days near city hall area..
getting sick of it soon..
lol..
but i think i seriously miss esplanade..
its like a part of me is there..
its the place of the start and the end of things..
and many happy processes in between..
i keep wondering why i react in a certain way to some things..
i cant understand myself..
i react the way i'm not supposed to..
and i dunno why too..
maybe i'm going crazy?
but one thing i know is i seriously need my frapp!!
haha..
if things are really so bad now..
it cant get any worse can it?
at most it'll just stay this way (which is totally killing me)..
or turn for the better (which i really hope)..
right?
or can it get any worse?
i hope i can get answers..
i want to know..
but how???????
aaaaargh!!!!!!
thats all for now..
gonna go bathe and get ready..
tata..
devastation is what i feel when i see your msn nick..
devastated..
i dunno why i feel this way..
cos i'm not supposed to..
i'm supposed to feel happy for you..
right?
but i dun think i can do it..
Paint Splashed<3
9:20 AM
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Y
okay..
so starting work really very soon..
wed..
and my new hair..
tsk..
TSK!!
nvm..
and i love thai food..
i wanna go back soon..
think my parents shld be gg back early next yr for my grandfather's stuff..
dun think i can go..:(
whatever..
and i told myself to effing smile..
and yup..
i smiled..
a fake one though..
haiz..
Paint Splashed<3
5:36 PM
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Y
if there's a pic that can describe me right now..
even a clown has its sad days..
alot, too..
i think i just cant move..
i'm just stuck where i had been..
have to refrain myself from doing so many things..
sometimes doing the right thing is just so.. hard..
and everything you said is so much easier said than done..
at least, for me..
if only i have the choice..
if only i were given a choice, i think i might just nv move too..
alone, more than ever felt..
i dun wanna do what i dun wanna do..
its torturous..
Paint Splashed<3
2:43 PM
Y
a few more days..
i hope so..
and hopefully the mess in my head will be cleaned up..
at least wont think so much if i'm busy yea?
went to the jap association ytd..
it was very nice!!!
and the little jap girls running around are so cute!!
there's this super cute american-jap mixed boy too..
haha..
'read' the jap newspaper and magazines..:P
lol..
went to their club shop but library is only for members..:(
lightning accompanied me home ytd..
pretty pretty..:)
streaks of lightning in the dark sky..:)
thats all for now..
tata..
if only i ever know whats going on in your mind..
Paint Splashed<3
9:23 AM
Friday, December 5, 2008
Y
the inside of my head is so freaking messed up!!!!!!!!
yea..
messed up..
thats the word..
made a wrong move ytd i guess?
no 'undo' button to take me back..
there's so many things i wanna say but i dunno who to tell..
ah..
seriously..
reduced to kping to myself..
think i might just explode anytime..
all i need is someone who'll listen to me and not scold me for what i'm thinking, doing and feeling..
ya..
is there anyone there???
and ya..
my mum is not talking to me for some unknown reason..
this is pissing me off..
hope i'll start working next wk..
hope my dad wont break his promise and bring me to the jap association club tonight..
i wanna see..:)
thats all for now..
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
12:13 PM
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Y
yes..
i didnt go for prom..
for 2 very simple reasons..
1) i wasn't feeling well..
2) i cut my hair that afternoon and i didnt wanna grace prom with my new hair..
yup..
didnt tell donna the second reason la..
haha..
it was a really starry night ytd..
counted 51 stars..:)
they made me feel better last night..
was really..
hmm..
dunno..
sad?
maybe..
but anyway..
i have got a fringe ppl!!
and my hair is short..
like..
short..
yea..
haha..
i think its fine la..
just need a bit of getting used to..
:)
the new me..:)
well..
ah..
i think..
you've made it easier for me..
felt like someone just gave me a big tight slap or poured cold water on my head..
thats how i felt last night..
how stupid can i get man..
get a grip angela..
ha..
went offline immediately after i saw it..
i think i couldn't take it..
or maybe i thought wrong?
its all the works of the mind and interpretation..
but i can feel i'm right..
so ya..
emo as usual..
and got enough of it too..
well..
thats all for now..
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
1:25 PM
Monday, December 1, 2008
Y
just got the shock of my life..
okay..
not that bad la..
too exaggerating..
haha..:P
its kinda funny anyway..
it just didnt cross my mind that she'd be the one..
haha..
oops..
later he kill me..:P
well well well..
ppl meet in the funniest and weirdest ways and places huh..
haha..
finished reading twilight..
its really nice!!
couldn't put down..
waiting for my sis to borrow new moon for me..
but she refused to..:(
sobs..
and oh ya..
to the person that i bought twilight for..
i hope you'd read it and not make me waste my money..
i know you stopped halfway..
and i doubt you're gonna pick it up again..
but ya..
aiya..
whatever la..
okay ppl..
thats all for now..
got stuffs to do..
tata..
the end of a beautiful day..
its just the end..
but yet it marks the start of a new mysterious day..
the end yet a new start..
how saddening, yet wonderous..
isn't it?
Paint Splashed<3
11:32 AM
