Monday, April 27, 2009
Y
so hmm..
yes..
i guess history did repeat itself..
but some things were diff this time..
his reactions to it..
far from what i expected..
pleasant surprise..:)
i was so worried abt him..
he took it really well..
haha..:)
different different different..:)
i dunno..
i'm playing a diff role this time..
i used to be the 'trying to make him happy' character..
but now i'm the receiving end..
it feels diff and so much better..
but i know how it feels to be the giving person..
so yup..
i'm not gonna treat him the way i was treated..
and i appreciate the things he did..
not gonna TRY to appreciate like some ppl do..
anyway..
this thurs is my official last day at work as full time..
but my boss pleaded with me to stay and help him..
so i think i'll still be working there but as part time..
as in like maybe 2 days a wk or sth..
yus was so damn sad when he knew..
haha..
funny..
now i believe..
that there's always sth or someone better than what i had thought was the best..
now i know..:)
thats all for now..
tata..
when you slammed the front door shut, lots of others opened up..
so did my eyes, so i could see that you nv were the best for me..
i can still rmb..
you said that if it were any other guy who's not you..
they would've ran away..
but let me tell you sth..
you are so so so so so so WRONG..
Paint Splashed<3
8:13 AM
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Y
i hope he's okay..
i'm really sorry for what happened..
seriously..
i dunno what to expect..
or what to do..
will their reactions be what i think it'd be?
i'm very pessimistic at the moment..
oh god..
i cant wait to find out..
but i'm scared too..
i hope history wont repeat itself..
i have faith..
but does he?
thats sth i'm gonna find out later..
thats all for now..
just hope for the best..
tata..
the things we did..
let it bring you faith..
i hope..
please..
i'm sorry..
Paint Splashed<3
10:10 AM
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Y
haha..
this is damn funny..
why does things have to always happen in such a funny and stupid way....
i dun understand..
now things have come to a point that its hard to revert back to the way it was..
ahhhhhhh....
seriously..
he says he loves me..
yes..
love..
but he says he knows i'm not so sure yet..
he's sad with my answer though..
but he said he'll give me time to get to know him and accept him for who he is..
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
i dunno how i feel too..
sometimes the things he says really makes me go weak at my knees..
really..
he is so sweet..
yet so pitiful..
we're getting really close now..
i dunno how to stop everything..
the feeling he gives me is sth i've nv ever felt before..
its really nice..
but well..
yes..
we're so diff..
sometimes things just have to happen this way yea..
let you meet such a nice guy but you just have no choice..
thats all for now..
tata..
confused to the max.........................
Paint Splashed<3
8:34 AM
Monday, April 20, 2009
Y
i know i'm walking in the wrong direction now..
and yet i dunno what to do abt it..
ytd was even better..
ah.........
he's really very different from that first guy..
lol..
some of the things he says really touched me..
i dunno..
someone tell me what to do ya..
if only he weren't who he is..
if only our religion and stuffs weren't so diff..
:(
thats all for now..
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
8:39 AM
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Y
i dunno what to do..
as in he says lotsa stuffs..
he says he'll make me happy..
and he says he live his life for me..
and he calls me his baby..
and he really takes care of me and stuffs..
ah.....................................................
i dunno..
as in he's really sweet and stuff..
he's very fun too..
but its all wrong la..
wrong wrong wrong......
how..
hmm..
dunno..
shall see how it goes then..
i cant pull myself away..
either..
and i'm getting really late for work now..
thats all for now..
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
10:18 AM
Friday, April 17, 2009
Y
hmm..
so victor smokes too..
was kinda surprised when i saw him lighting up..
haha..
dun judge a book by its cover eh?
haha..
i kp telling him to smile..
so funny..
so now everytime he sees me, he'll give me a super big smile..
haha!!
ytd was bakat's birthday..
and he sent 2 slices of cake over..
damn nice..
so i made him a card..
super funny..
they were laughing like mad when they all saw what i wrote..
haha!!
and i just realise ytd that mickey mouse and teddy bear dunno that yus is smsing me..
funny..
okay..
and he told me not to tell them..
i shall comply then..
nonsense ppl..
haha..
but ya la..
they're fun ppl..
hafiz and syamil are working today!!!!!!!!!!!!
yay!!!
:)
i'm getting late alr..
its 10.20 now..
shoots..
thats all for now..
gotta keep my distance from mickey mouse..
or rather tell him to keep his distance..
afterall he's the one getting married next yr and not me..
haha..
tata..
they make me smile..:)
you're the reason for the teardrops on my pillow..
but its ending soon..
really soon................
i think i've changed much earlier than i thought..:)
its a gd sign..:)))
Paint Splashed<3
9:55 AM
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Y
working today..
i kinda look forward to it for some unknown reason..
haha..
i realise i'm more at peace than i thought i'd ever be..
seriously..
well done angela..:)
*twirls and takes a bow*
and now here comes another prob..
he says what he wants is to make me happy everyday..
ah..
i dunno..
here comes this kinda nonsense again..
this is from a diff person, in case you're confused..
i dun wanna suffer another heartbreak whatsoever again..
even though this guy is so super diff from that first guy..
its funny in the way that i actually kinda believe in what this guy says you know..
maybe its his character and the way he says it that makes me believe..
he's the super down-to-earth, straight and playful kinda person..
i hope he'll really make me happy..
as friends though..
crazy huh..
i think so too..
i'm going mad..
but we're friends..
only..
nothing more..
yes..
seeing him tmr..
not today..
haha..
maybe this is all i'm left with to believe in..
seriously..
i dun believe in anything else anymore..
especially words that come out from a guy's mouth..
let me just trust one more time..
just this once..
let me believe that not all guys are the same..
well, he himself says he's diff from that first guy..
lets see where things go shall we?
and how true the things he said are..
i shall take things as they come..
but i learnt my lesson well..
so dun worry..:)
oh ya!!!!!!
ppl!!!
my phone is back in use alr!!!!
woo hoo~!!!!!!!!!!!
since ytd..
haha..
thats all for now..
tata..
in case you worry or anything..
i know what i'm doing and i'll be fine..
i'm not mixing with the wrong ppl..
dun be so superficial..
like what i said..
not all smokers are bad..
and doesn't mean that all non-smokers are gd either..
you're one great example..
haha..:P
i wont be getting into a new one so soon..
so rest assured..
whatever la..
thats all..
Paint Splashed<3
8:09 AM
Monday, April 13, 2009
Y
okay..
so i've moved hse alr..
to lakeside..
woke up super early today..
6am..
damn tired..
anyway..
i'm really tired..
of everything..
thought it through..
and yup..
guess things might probably be the best the way they are now..
i dunno..
i cant say for sure..
but i know i've definitely changed..
working on wed..
miss mickey mouse alr..
and hafiz too..
mata besar..
lol..
haha..
i'm getting sick too..
sore throat..
and coughing a bit..
sobs..
tired..
thats all for now..
tata..
i need to find a way out of this tiring cycle..
thank you..
for doing all these to me..
and ya..
i still love the poster you gave me..
haha..
whatever..
Paint Splashed<3
1:40 PM
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Y
ytd my sales were damn bad..
like super super bad..
first time in history i couldn't even hit 200..
i was shocked..
ting was even more shocked than me..
lol..
kept asking me why and what happen to me..
ha..
anyway..
i'll still be working ppl..
till they're able to find a replacement..
whatever..
it doesn't matter now..
i dunno what to feel and what to do..
like seriously..
actually thought of sth..
but after i saw sth else, i just dunno if i shld anymore..
haha..
maybe it hadn't matter at all..
maybe it just never had..
haha..
cant believe my stupidity..
oh well..
time to wake up, angela..
thats all for now..
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
8:08 AM
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Y
what shld i say..
was i too optimistic?
was i too hopeful?
ha..
thought everything would go well huh..
what stupid foolish dumbass thought that is..
it faded and i didnt even realise it..
wtf..
i kept believing in it..
in you and myself..
that everything's gonna turn out fine the way i planned it..
but little did i expect you weren't as strong as i thought..
as selfless as i thought..
you were a selfish person..
i dun even know whether the word 'person' is a correct word to use on someone like you..
i thought you changed..
ah..
yes, you changed..
to someone i nv know..
the person i knew had died so long ago..
i dun understand..
i really dun..
i feel stupid..
i really do..
the pacts and promises made..
are they just for show or what?
when i pretended to be on the verge of breaking the promise, you reminded me of it..
i thought you still cared..
but hell no..
when you really broke that promise..
and i reminded you of it..
you dun give a fucking damn..
you only thought abt yourself and your happiness..
what abt mine???
what abt me?????????
' i tried to appreciate'
you TRIED to appreciate????
damn you..
who do you think you are?
bloody hell..
i thought your mum likes to call me?
why doesn't she call now?
why didnt she snatch the phone from you this time?
why didnt she shout or say anything in the background?
cos its her bloody son's fault!!!!!!!!!!!!
you all are the same i tell you..
i hate you..
seriously..
i fucking hate you..
i will nv die without you..
you dream on..
till the day you wake up from your dreams and selfish world, i will nv in my life be your friend..
i will nv have a friend like you..
i'll be ashamed if i were your friend..
seriously..
i wonder how your friends will feel if they know this is how their friend treat his gf..
bloody hell..
like what ting said..
you're so not worth my time..
selfish and immatured..
the promises that you made to me..
haha..
i wonder what they actually mean to you..
i think its a little late for me to run now..
should've started running away long ago..
but my beliefs kept me rooted i guess..
but i think its still not too late..
i'll run..
i'll start running now..
away from the man behind that mask of the face i thought i knew so well..
he died so long ago and i didnt even know it..
ha..
nv seen a more dumb person than me eh?
i think so too..
thank goodness my friends were there..
especially yus and komang and mickey mouse..
really..
and ting too..
and luckily i'm working too..
thanks to you all for cheering me up k?
haha..:)
mickey mouse was a big big big big help..
really wanna go figo with them this fri..
tsk..
thats all for now..
tata..
you're just dead and gone..
totally..
Paint Splashed<3
8:14 AM
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Y
thank goodness i still have my friends at work..
not talking abt the ppl working with me though..
like mickey mouse and yus..
glad i have them..
and their nonsense too..
haha..
doing so much nonsense with them everyday..
but they're good at noticing my mood changes too..
i'm so surprised..
haha..
thanks for cheering me up..:)
gave ezaty a card ytd..
and she was so touched..
haha..:)
will miss that girl lots..:)
working again tmr..
totally tired today..
drop dead tired..
zzzzzzzzzz............
thats all for now..
tata..
cheer up k?:)
sorry for being so busy..:(
Paint Splashed<3
11:29 AM
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Y
watched penelope..
its so nice..
was laughing half the time..
haha..
but its a really nice show..:)
loved their soundtrack..
was searching for it like crazy and i finally found it..:)
nice lyrics too..
using it as my blog song..:)
cristian gave us a treat ytd..
but he did it very discreetly la..
haha..
so grateful anyway..:)
colin's last day today!!:(
izzati's tmr......:(((
sobs..
mine will be next wk..
den i wont be able to see mickey mouse alr..:(
sadded..
but i'll come back to see them..:)
i promised mickey mouse..:)
thats all for now..
a new girl's coming to train today..
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
8:27 AM
