Sunday, August 31, 2008
Y
i am gonna get over you once and for all..
i'm telling you this..
i am not gonna let you affect my daily work and emotions..
i am strong..:)
i'm gonna show you that i can..
this period of time is just gonna be a comma in my life..:)
but its quite sad la that you misunderstood me..
and sad that you actually need ppl to tell you not to say stuffs for you not to say them..
i thought you knew..
but whatever it is..
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
8:36 PM
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Y
i'm supposed to be sound aslp now but i just cant get to slp..
keep thinking abt it non stop..
haiz..
its affecting me..
cant study and cant think and do things properly too..
haiz..
i know you tried your best le..
but there's nothing we can do anymore le..
and also..
the more i see her blog, the more i hate her..
as in ya la..
i know its not like that but you cant blame me for being this way too..
whatever la..
i find it so hard to concentrate and do stuffs..
cos all that pops up is you you you you you and you..
see la..
big dumb dumb..
anyway..
went out with chi and xy on wed after my last paper..
imm-ed..
cafe cartel-ed and anderson ice cream-ed..
chatted alot..
especially xy..
kp talking non stop..
haha..
had fun..:)
i just hope that time will fly..
this period will pass..
and what we hope to happen will happen..
but like what yq said..
if everything remains the same after yrs,
there could still be a possibility..
thats all now..
gonna force myself to slp..
and to smile..
genuinely..
nitez..
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
2:24 AM
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Y
interesting to know some ppl really take the time to read my entries even though they're just passerbys..:)
you could leave a name if you're really that interested in my life you know..:)
thanks for making my tagboard so full of life now..:)
and yay!!
we're still friends..:)
and in case anyone's wondering what happened..
well..
there are circumstances that forced us..
so ya..
if fate allows..
we'll be tgt again someday maybe..
so thats up to fate now..:)
but that means i've got one more friend now..:))
super close type..
haha..
thanks for being there..:)
and yup..
i know i can always count on you no matter what..:)
thanks for today too..:)
you know what i'm talking abt..:)
big bear..:)
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
8:36 PM
Monday, August 18, 2008
Y
its actually 2yrs 5mths and 28days..
sorry..
didnt see what i was typing that day..
anyway..
my mum came to my hse for a visit ytd..
my real mum i mean..
and she left for taiwan this morning..
and its chaos at home now..
my step mum claims we dun love her..
like wth..
cups smashed, glass broke, water spilled, closets overturned..
my dad smoked, my mum pounded the floor, cried, screamed, shouted..
she wanted to leave..
my sisters cried, my bro hates us too..
he ran away when i wanted to approach him..
cos my mum kp telling him "we're outsiders. not their family. we only have ourselves"
oh god..
problems just come one after another..
i hope tmr the sun will shine..
but for now..
its stormy..
and i still cant get what i want..
after so long, you still dunno what i want..
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
11:28 PM
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Y
so this is how the story end..
this is the end..
and it hurts like sth piercing through me..
well done, bryan..
i knew this was coming..
its just a matter of who says it first..
its just a matter of time..
its gonna hurt when it heals too..
but it'll all get better in time..
goodbye to the 2yrs and 28 days..
tata forever..
Paint Splashed<3
11:14 AM
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Y
i dunno why..
you just keep keep keep keep keep making me feel this way..
as in you want the truth..
so i tell you..
den you say you wont forgive me for what i said..
then what for you wanna ask me..
its the facts you heard..
since you dun like what you heard, den do sth to make it better la!!
like really..
stop saying that you've been your best le..
cos i know you still can do better..
aiya..
i know you'll be upset by the above sentence again..
i dun understand why you cant change your mindset of changing for the better..
dun dwell in unhappiness and sadness..
improve on it..
thats what you shld be doing..
erase what ppl say abt you..
and pls..
stop burying all the unhappiness you feel towards me in your heart le..
learn to take things in your stride..
learn to forgive..
i'm not asking for forgiveness..
i'm just telling you to stop doing sth thats very bad..
i hope you'll learn from what i say..
seriously..
kan kai yi dian..
thats all for now..
tata..
my mum's coming this fri..
Paint Splashed<3
8:09 PM
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Y
my dad just called me..
he really loves me alot..
haiz..
tell me to study hard and buying lunch back for me..
so nice..
but sometimes the things that he do is really irritating..
what to do..
parents parents parents..
they make you love them and they make you hate them too..
and its all for your own good too..
oh the irony of it all..
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
11:45 AM
Y
after reading someone's entry i start having a headache..
feel like i wanna faint..
its like just..
DEAD..
ya..
but well..
whats done is done..
i know this will strain our relationship definitely..
i'm really sorry..
now all i can do is to wait and see if she'll come talk to me abt it..
and all i can do is explain and apologise to her..:(
went donna's hse ytd with rashal and jon..
they loved her massage chair but i feel like its gonna break my bones anytime..
lol..
i was laughing like mad on it..
haha..
had fun there and we dozed off while watching step up 2..
again..
haha..
and her mum made fish for me cos i couldn't eat the crab..
so nice..:)))
stuuuuuuuupid jon..
just love making fun of me..
imitating me with his monkey-like face..
copying everything i say and do..
aaaargh..
annoying..
thats why he's called jon the ass..
haha!!
well..
back to home stuffs..
mum's talking all her theories and logic to me everyday to make me see 'light'..
and the worse part is she wants me to do sth abt it..
i am not gonna do it okay???
and dad..
i can tell he knows all the stuffs i did last time alr..
especially after reading someone's entry..
but he didnt tell mum..
like thank goodness..
but he keep doing things and saying stuffs to show that "hey i know what you did ar"..
damn annoying..
so both parents are up on me now..
and i have to stand in the line and not put a single toe out of it..
its getting harder..
with them checking and checking and checking and CHECKING me!!!!
i'm damn pissed off now..
they want an answer to what i'm gonna do and i have freaking no answers!!!!!!!!!
leave me be leave me be...
pls pls pls..
i wanna breathe some fresh air..
i really dun wanna get choked to death..
i just wanna be a normal human being..
oh god..
even this is hard..
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
10:37 AM
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Y
been studying at je lib everyday these few wks..
with donna, rashal and jon..:)
had fun..:)
went to rashal's hse on fri..
her mum made donuts which was really nice and the frog egg water too..
haha..
so funny..
and i LOVE macy!!!!!!!!!!
she is so freaking cute!!
love her eyes!!!
she's rashal's dog in case you dunno..
haha..
her parents were damn funny also..
and how they're addicted to the show..
haha..
and to think she still complain abt her mum everyday..
aiyo..
had a bit of dinner at her hse and her parents kp making fun of jon cos he dun eat veg..
haha!!
and and and..
MY PARENTS ARE TALKING TO ME AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!
like woo hoo!!
i am like so freaking happy la!!!!
so long nv talk to my dad properly like this le..:))))
study break this coming week..
gonna mug mug mug..
gotta wake up!!!
sometimes i really dunno how to handle you..
sometimes i really dunno how you feel and why you feel that way..
i feel.. weird..
i dunno how to make you happy..
seriously..
i tried so hard and yet you're still so depressed..
its weird..
why dun i feel as depressed??
i want you to care and feel concerned abt my probs and not go CRAZY cos of them..
i wanna feel the love and care..
cos sometimes..
i dunno..
i dun feel it..
feels like you care more abt yourself..
and you kp blaming me..
when both of us are at fault..
i dunno..
i just feel that..
something's gone wrong..
thats all for now..
tata..
Paint Splashed<3
11:32 AM
