I Paint My World The Way I Want It

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

what shld i say..
was i too optimistic?
was i too hopeful?
ha..
thought everything would go well huh..
what stupid foolish dumbass thought that is..
it faded and i didnt even realise it..
wtf..
i kept believing in it..
in you and myself..
that everything's gonna turn out fine the way i planned it..
but little did i expect you weren't as strong as i thought..
as selfless as i thought..
you were a selfish person..
i dun even know whether the word 'person' is a correct word to use on someone like you..
i thought you changed..
ah..
yes, you changed..
to someone i nv know..
the person i knew had died so long ago..
i dun understand..
i really dun..
i feel stupid..
i really do..
the pacts and promises made..
are they just for show or what?
when i pretended to be on the verge of breaking the promise, you reminded me of it..
i thought you still cared..
but hell no..
when you really broke that promise..
and i reminded you of it..
you dun give a fucking damn..
you only thought abt yourself and your happiness..
what abt mine???
what abt me?????????
' i tried to appreciate'
you TRIED to appreciate????
damn you..
who do you think you are?
bloody hell..
i thought your mum likes to call me?
why doesn't she call now?
why didnt she snatch the phone from you this time?
why didnt she shout or say anything in the background?
cos its her bloody son's fault!!!!!!!!!!!!
you all are the same i tell you..
i hate you..
seriously..
i fucking hate you..
i will nv die without you..
you dream on..
till the day you wake up from your dreams and selfish world, i will nv in my life be your friend..
i will nv have a friend like you..
i'll be ashamed if i were your friend..
seriously..
i wonder how your friends will feel if they know this is how their friend treat his gf..
bloody hell..
like what ting said..
you're so not worth my time..
selfish and immatured..
the promises that you made to me..
haha..
i wonder what they actually mean to you..

i think its a little late for me to run now..
should've started running away long ago..
but my beliefs kept me rooted i guess..
but i think its still not too late..
i'll run..
i'll start running now..
away from the man behind that mask of the face i thought i knew so well..
he died so long ago and i didnt even know it..
ha..
nv seen a more dumb person than me eh?
i think so too..

thank goodness my friends were there..
especially yus and komang and mickey mouse..
really..
and ting too..
and luckily i'm working too..
thanks to you all for cheering me up k?
haha..:)
mickey mouse was a big big big big help..
really wanna go figo with them this fri..
tsk..

thats all for now..

tata..
you're just dead and gone..
totally..

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