I Paint My World The Way I Want It

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

going to work soon..
my mum's so worried abt me..
cos i'm very careless and stuff..
heh..
kp reminding me to eat during breaks and bring my sweater and stuffs..
haha..:)
so sweet..:)
she hugged me just now too before she went to office..
and told me to 'take gd care of yourself ar'..
my dad too..
and she bought something for me..
totally unexpected..
i was really very touched..
made me cry..
haha..:)
love them just oh so much!!:)

i'm a bit scared..
but well..
gd thing is i'll get to meet chi one of these days soon..:)
and hopefully yuqin and another friend..
didnt see them for at least a million yrs alr..
haha..

been out at night alot these few days near city hall area..
getting sick of it soon..
lol..
but i think i seriously miss esplanade..
its like a part of me is there..
its the place of the start and the end of things..
and many happy processes in between..

i keep wondering why i react in a certain way to some things..
i cant understand myself..
i react the way i'm not supposed to..
and i dunno why too..
maybe i'm going crazy?

but one thing i know is i seriously need my frapp!!
haha..

if things are really so bad now..
it cant get any worse can it?
at most it'll just stay this way (which is totally killing me)..
or turn for the better (which i really hope)..
right?
or can it get any worse?

i hope i can get answers..
i want to know..
but how???????
aaaaargh!!!!!!

thats all for now..
gonna go bathe and get ready..

tata..
devastation is what i feel when i see your msn nick..
devastated..
i dunno why i feel this way..
cos i'm not supposed to..
i'm supposed to feel happy for you..
right?
but i dun think i can do it..

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