I Paint My World The Way I Want It

Friday, March 28, 2008

going malaysia tmr..
for ching ming jie..
leaving early morning tmr..
as in really early like 6am..
yawns..

quarrelled with my mum 2 days ago..
and now she's not talking to me too..
just like my dad..
and its been exactly 1mth 13days since my dad last talked to me..
now he only speaks to me when required to..
haiz..

anyway..
bio test coming up..
2 wks later..
and chem test mext fri..
gotta do well man..:)

dunno why i always feel very trapped and choked when i'm at home..
as in i just feel uncomfortable..
now that i'm not talking to them..
its like sometimes i have things i wanna share with them..
like what happened in school and stuff..
but i cant tell them cos they dun talk to me..
i watched a video during gp on north korea today and i really wanna tell my mum abt it..
but i cant..
haiz..
this is getting pathetic man..
and now the only ppl i can tell are my sisters and bryan..
sometimes i really wanna say sorry to them..
even though its both party's fault..
but like just now there was crime watch on tv..
a girl getting beaten up by a gang..
den my mum told me: " i hope such things happen to you. you'll surely get it de.."
and i just nv ever wanna talk to her again..
ya..
thats why..

anyway..
happier stuffs..
supposed to do bio prac skill a with max and abbie today..
end up we crap non stop and i was laughing all the way and just nv did any work..
lol..

saw this quote on the net and i find it funny and quite true at the same time..:)
“Let us leave the beautiful women to men with no imagination. ”

tata..

stay guai guai hor..:P
i'll be back soon..:)
and suddenly i get reminded of my pink ring..:)
and i'm gonna change blog song le..
cos you keep making fun of it..
haha..
to my all-time favourite song..:)
she will be loved!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
love ya~!!!

Paint Splashed<3
9:30 PM

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

changed new skin!!
i like it alot..
think its very nice..:))

anyway..
not in a very gd mood now..
was scolded..
for things that have been ongoing and things that are unchangeable and happened like last yr..
well..
i'm not pissed with them..
just wonder why they cant get over it..
but seeing things from their point, i really understand how they feel..
i'm really sorry for disappointing them..
sorry that i'm not getting my results this yr..
sorry that you all have to go through all that cos of me..
sorry that i didnt work hard..
sorry that i played too much..
sorry that i didnt live up to expectations..
sorry that mama cried cos of all these..
sorry that i made everyday xin ku for you..

though its long ago stuffs..

i'm really sorry..

cos my mum cried and talked to me today..

her friends called her up and ask abt my studies..

she didnt know what to say..

i know how you feel..

thats why i'm not angry at you for scolding me..

i accept them all..

i promise you that i'll work hard this yr..

i promise i'll be the best..

though you wont see all that i type..

but it'll be here reminding me..

i promise you..

Paint Splashed<3
10:05 PM

Monday, March 24, 2008

was playing psp alot today..
played bomberman..
with xiaowei..
and we were screaming our heads off when the character died..
haha!!!
all the vulgarities and stuff all come out..
but thats what makes it fun la..:)
haha..
then we took turns to fight the enemy boss..
it was damn funny..
we were screaming during cs lesson..
especially xw..
she was super loud la!!
den we continued playing in the canteen..
and we were louder than ever..
so paiseh..
haha..
but it was so fun!!!!
gonna ask bryan to dl it..
haha!!!!!!!!
i think he'll auto go dl once he see this post le so dun need to ask..
HAHAHA!!!!

saw quite a few examples..
and i really think that sometimes even in the most ideal situations, there wont be the most ideal outcomes..
so ya..
treasure what we have now!!!!!!!:))
haha..

i'm in a gd mood now..
maybe its the eating too much today..
went to eat kfc with mayching den eat a bit of chips and fries at long john with bryan den dinner at home..
FAT FAT FAT!!!!
haha..
or maybe its the bomberman or cos there's no pc tmr!!!!!!
yay!!!!
haha..
i think its everything..
haha..:)

but i a bit dread tmr..
cos she's coming school tmr..
and she'll be telling me all her stories that i'm not interested in but have to act interested again..
sian..
the best part is another friend LOVES listening to her stories..
sian..
cant ask her to shut up also..
so just listen lo..
or maybe just hear but not listen..
haha!!!:))

and hope i can settle the class tee issue with the supplier tmr!!!
fed up with them and scolded them via sms today..
lol..

anyway..
chem and ionic equlibrium test coming!!!!!!
there's revision test tmr and i havent study!!

gtg go now..
that's all..

tata!!!

Paint Splashed<3
10:10 PM

Saturday, March 22, 2008

at office again..
haha..
went out ytd and watched STEP UP 2!!!!!
its a nice movie and i like the dances..
haha..
finally watch it..:)
den we went to town and had lotsa fun ytd..
and i was crapping and doing stupid nonsensical stuffs..
lol..
and bryan was laughing laughing laughing laughing LAUGHING!!!!!!
at me la..
haha..
especially when on the train..
haha..:)
glad i made him happy though..:)

but my next weekend will be spent in malaysia le..:(

but anyway..
here's some of the photos that were taken during the e3 gathering and some in class..
those that didnt go for rashal's bday party were made to wear that bunny hairband..
haha..

the E3s!!!!!!!

our 'moustache'!!!!!!

michele and rashal.. haha..

maggie!

mayching busy fitting it on her head..:P

and the outcome!!!

max: "NO! DUN PUT IT ON ME!!!!"

jonathan

me and my constipated look..:P

TA DA~!!!!

okay..

gtg now..

lotsa hw to do..

and i love ytd!!!!!!!

tata!!!

Paint Splashed<3
11:24 AM

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

feeling sian alot lately..
dun wanna go school and stuff..
part of me really really wanna sit down and do hw..
but part of me just wanna sit down, slack, and just die on the chair..
haha..
ya..
not feeling very happy now..
for some reason la..
and i wanna watch step up 2!!!!!
and sky of love!!!!!!!
dunno when i can finally watch..
maybe sat?
but if i go malaysia this week den it'll be damn sian le..
most prob they'll end up in the grp of movies that i cant catch again le..
well well well..

i feel a bit stressed..
i wanna do this and that but no time..
wanna join pre u sem but scared later my studies get affected..
wanna join theatre for syf but scared later my studies affected again..
studies studies studies..
haiz..
dun feel like going school tmr..
and the next day..
and the next and the next and the next and the next.....................

sometimes i just dun feel appreciated when you say those things..
after doing so much for you..
it just makes me feel alone and there's noone i can depend on..
yes i know you didnt mean it..
oh wells..
life goes on..

gotta go soon..
go where i also dunno..
do what i'm not sure too..
i wanna feel happy again..

and man..
this stupid cough and my voice and the blocked nose is irritating me..
and money money money..
yes..
money makes the world go round..

tata..

Paint Splashed<3
11:20 PM

Sunday, March 16, 2008

in my dad's office now..
sianing..
school starting tmr..
dun feel like going..
cos it just means more tests and more tests..
anyway..
coughing..
and my mum went to buy some chinese med to boil for us to drink..
the person went to zhua yao and one of the 'ingredients' in it is a BEEEEEE!!!!!!!
as fat and big as my thumb..
goodness!!!!!!!!
the person say drink the water can le..
OMG..
but well..
its for my own good..
haha..

dunno why my dad's been pmsing ALOT these days..
hmm..

anyway..
didnt go sakura in the end on fri..
haha..
but i still wanna eat sashimi!!!!!
getting hungry now..
haha..:P

didnt go out on sat..:(
supposed to watch step up 2 de!!!!!
then cant go out..:((((((
i see the trailer and i wanna watch it even more..
haha..
must watch it soon!!!!!!!!!!!

my sis slping in the office after doing her work..
actually she's quite cute la though irritating sometimes..
haha..

was thinking quite alot of stuffs lately..
my dreams, and what i want..
some stupid but well..
its still my dream that i hope will happen some day though its alrdy impossible for some to come true la..
haha..
heard ppl shouting across my block early this morning..
its actually a groom coming to pick up his bride..
haha..
den i thought of mine and my parents and was a bit sad la..
but well..
its the future and who knows maybe my parents might change their mind?
hmm..
being optimistic..:)

the song playing now is such a sad yet nice song..
affecting my mood le..

oh wells..
thats all for now..

sorry for that quarrel..
i really didnt mean to de..
sometimes my emotions just get the better of me..
sorry dear..
love ya lots!!!!!!!!!!!!:)))

tata..
this is such a random random post!!!!!
haha..:)

Paint Splashed<3
2:06 PM

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

had e3 gathering last sat..:)
had fun and got to see friends that didnt see for like 3yrs le..:)
took lotsa pics and retarded ones with pl too..
haha..
still yet to get them from her..
will post the pics once i get from them!:)
and bryan was the photographer for the day..
haha..:P

and my bro is turning 4yrs old this coming wed!!!!!!!:)
going for his birthday celeb in school on wed..:)
haha..

and my dad!!!
OMG!!!
i am damn proud of him!!!!!!!!!!!
he was chosen to be the man making the construction demolition laws in singapore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cos of his experience and capability..:)
oh my goodness!!!
haha..:)
his laws will be out and in action by june..:)
WOOHOO~!!!!
first man in singapore but he wont get paid..
but he'll get all the credits and his name will be there too!!
and he'll get invited to speak in seminars and stuff too!!!
OMG!!!!!!!!
my mum's happy cos can finally clear the bank loans..
haha..
but we're all damn proud of him..
and it took him more than 20yrs of hard work to get to where he is now..
yup..
my dad says hardwork and humility is the key..
well..
i hope i can be like him one day..
thats if i ever can la..
haha..

thats all for now..
gotta study for the block test coming next week!!!!!!!!
how to be like my dad if i cant even do well for my block test right..
haha..:P

going sakura with mayching on fri!!!
and she's treating me!!!!!!!!

tata..

Paint Splashed<3
9:46 AM

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

damn stressed..
so much stuff havent study..
aaaaaaaaaaargh!!!!!!!!
doom to fail tmr and fri's test de..
sobs..
but on a happier and less stressed note..
sat is coming!!!!
and next fri will be here soon!!!
going out with mayching..
haha..
and the week after that will be coming real soon too!!!
meeting chi!!!
haha..
i'm like looking so far off..
haha..
but at least its happier stuffs..

went to see the chem noticeboard today..
and i saw my name there!!!!!!:)
i was soooooo HAPPY!!!!
haha..
cos did quite okay for my previous chem test..
so name was on the list..:)))
yay!!!!:)

okay..

gtg study now..

but i'll still fail anyway..

aiya..

just try my best la..

saw this damn nice quote:

"Life isn't abt how to survive in a storm.

But how to dance in the rain.."

i find it so beautiful and meaningful..

its quite true huh..

especially for you who's always so upset and pessimistic de..

be happy..:)

that's all for now..

tata..

Paint Splashed<3
4:27 PM

Saturday, March 1, 2008

went out with jc and xy ytd..
change from expo to vivo to marina sq to bugis..
lol!!!
wanna slap them..
changing venue every 5mins..
haha..
end up going bugis..
wanted to buy shoes..
but me and jc end up not seeing anything we like so didnt buy..
was fun..:)
long time since we all last met up..
haha..

anyway..
i just successfully taught myself another maths topic..
this is the 4th topic i've taught myself so far..
cos i cant understand the lec..
but i taught myself well..:)
haha..
so proud of myself..:P

stayed home today..
my mum was damn surprised i didnt go out..
keep asking me why why why..
answer till sian..
but can tell she was very happy la..:)
and i talked more nonsense to her at home too..
i think thats why she was happy ba..
long time since we last crapped so much le..
haha..
but at the same time i feel trapped..
he was feeling upset the whole day even till now..

sometimes i just dunno what to say to you..
cos its just so so so hard to make you happy..
i know it's not gd enough and i kept saying the same things..
but i tried my best..
i really did..
but i failed to cheer you up..
i'm lousy in such things..
so hard to be happy..
and i mean you..
not me..
i wanted to feel happy cos i get to spend time with them all..
but i didnt..
i just cant feel happy wtih you being so upset the whole day..
i dun mean you cant feel unhappy..
but its the whole day you know..
haiz..
cheer up can?
pls..
i dunno how to cheer you up le la..
my dumb jokes and the happy things i say all get rejected..
you just made me feel..
sad..
i know i'm hopeless..
but all i ask for is for you to be happy..

Paint Splashed<3
9:53 PM