Monday, February 25, 2008
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i think i'm doomed for the mental hospital..
its just sooner or later..
i'm damn stress when i come home..
cos i'm afraid i'll get scolded..
so i have to reach home on time and everything..
today went out with phebe to toa payoh..
she was damn happy cos the stuffs there were so cheap..
haha..
chatted alot with her and i felt very sad..
met ss at boon lay mrt station too..
such coincidence..
nvm..
i went home and everything was fine..
i think if my mum dun scold me for one day she wont be happy..
so i was washing the dishes..
and she scolded my dad for doing sth stupid..
and she came to the kitchen and suddenly ask me abt my cca..
ask whether i still go for it..
and i said no cos i use the time to study and stuff..
den it was hell..
she started scolding me abt it..
screamed at me..
say i waste money buy the gi and stuff..
she scolded me calling me all sorts of names and stuff..
call me a b****
like wtf..
and its not the first time..
and she scolded me abt him..
she can always link everything to him..
i feel like wth..
you cant live a day without scolding me is it???
and why do you have to always say bad things abt him??
i dun understand..
you make me feel so low..
the lowest i ever felt was at home..
yea..
freaking home..
everyday i have to listen to you insult him, criticise him, make fun of him..
and i have to listen to him tell me how he cant tolerate my parents..
what am i man???
i feel so stressed everyday..
school work, tests, family, him..
and yet all these stupid things are making me go crazy..
i go out, they not happy..
i stay home, he not happy..
what what what!!!
i talk to you happily and you just spoil it all by giving me your attitude..
i know you're stressed at work..
but talk nicely cannot ar?
its not the first time..
and how can i not care abt my parents???
pls la..
i cant okay???
i want time to just stop man..
let me be the only thing that can move..
i wanna spend my day alone..
freaking alone..
i hate it all..
and i am even more stressed after talking it out to phebe..
though i'm supposed to feel better la..
go visit me at woodbridge soon ppl..
i'm gonna explode soon le
and ya..
i'm not trying to make you feel upset or what..
i still love you for being there when i'm upset abt my family..
and i love you for lending me your shoulders to cry on..
and i love you for your presence when i need it..
and i love you for all the care and concern you show me..
i just wanna vent out my feelings here..
that's all..
smiles k?
cheep up..:)
Paint Splashed<3
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