I Paint My World The Way I Want It

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

i dunno how i'm actually feeling now..
neither happy..
nor sad..
maybe there's a tinge of unhappiness or sadness..
but i really have no idea why i'm feeling this way..
maybe i know..
maybe its cos there's just too many things to do and too little time..
its no that there's very little time..
but the time that i have to do my stuffs are so.. limited.. and hard to come by..
haiz..
i wanna buy my stuffs..
but no money..
no time..
and no time left..
i wanna spend time with more ppl..
no time..
i wanna spend my weekends in a carefree way..
but difficult..
almost impossible..

i just feel that everything in my life cant be done to the fullest cos of lack of time..
i wanna enjoy myself to the fullest..
but time's the limiting factor..
haiz..

i so wanna start working..
as in totally stop schooling..
cos that's really the time where my life starts..
oh man..
why's my life like that???

my life is so full of..
lies..
excuses..
worry..
though i wont deny that there's fun and happiness too..
but all the fun and happiness has to stop when my time's up..
i feel so like cinderella..
except for the beauty part and the step sisters and talking animals..
cos i have a certain time limit to everything i do..
and everything just reverts back when the clock strikes..

there's so much i wanna do..
but so limited time..
and i just cant satisfy everyone at the same time..
haiz..

i create my own freedom..
i create my own happiness..
i create my own time..
and its just so hard to have to do all this e.v.e.r.y.d.a.y.
i want a break..
i want time..
i want you..
but its so hard..
for both you and me..
rules and regulations are driving me mad..
i'm sorry that i have to drag you into all these nonsense of mine..

TIME TIME TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that's all for now..
treasure all the time that you have ppl..
be grateful that you're not bounded and threatened by time..

Paint Splashed<3
10:39 PM